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Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
11:40 pm
"I get caught in a 'you were the only one for me' kinda thought"
"Everytime I Hear Your Name" - Anderson Keith

Finally got over that song of ours; stopped chasin' little red sports cars,
To check the license plates and I quit drivin' by your place.
Back makin' the rounds at our old haunts: Honky Tonks, restaurants.
And seein' some of our old friends: it feels good to dance again.
And I can finally smell your perfume and not look around the room for you.
And I can walk right by your picture in a frame and not feel a thing.

But when I hear your name,
I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.
And it's the fifth of May, and I'm right there starin' in your eyes.
And nothin's changed, and we're still same.
And I get lost in the innocence of a first kiss,
And I'm hangin' on to every word rollin' off of your lips:
And that's all it takes, and I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

Got someone special in my life; everyone thinks she'll make a great wife.
Dad says he thinks she's the one; reminds him of Mom when she was young.
But it's way too soon to be talkin' 'bout rings; don't wanna rush into anything.
She's getting over someone too, kinda like me and you.
And she talks about him every once in a while, and I just nod my head and smile,
'cause I know exactly what she's goin' through; yeah, I've been there too.

And when the conversation turns to you,
I get caught in a "you were the only one for me",
Kinda thought, and your face is all that I see.
I know I can't go back but I still go back.
And there we are, parked down by the riverside,
And I'm in your arms about to make love for the first time,
And that's all it takes, and I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

I stop thinkin' 'bout the words I left unsaid.

I stop tryin' the change the things I can't change.

In my heart I know you're gone, but in my head,

I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.
And it's the fifth of May, and I'm right there starin' in your eyes.
That's all it takes, and I'm in that place.
And there we are, parked down by the riverside,
And I'm in your arms about to make love for the first time.
And I can't explain, but I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

Current Mood: rejected
Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
7:56 pm
A congratulations I wish you could hear…
CONGRATULATIONS!
i wish i could tell you how happy i am for you!
Good luck and best wishes!

Current Mood: excited
Friday, November 23rd, 2007
12:10 am
Clear, Cold, and College Station...
well what more would a guy ask for then a cold clear night in college station, two years ago it would have been the perfect night, an ideal night, a romantic night, now it is just a lonely night, with a pale moon, in a foriegn town, i have an empty and dark house in a lonely town, i am the only person i know in CS and my roommates are all gone, my family is all in an another state, and here i sit, cold, alone, and broken hearted

i spent a holiday with strangers, no freinds, no family, heck i didnt even know where i was, i was somewhere in the woods?? the food was good, and the people were very nice, but none-the-less strangers

i nearly missed Yell practice and then i realize that i am sitting in my car less than 5yrds from the most important thing ever to be in my life, who is sitting in the car in front of me, and all i can do i drive by, sneak a 1/2 second peek and then drive off

i have never been so close to someone that meant so much to me, and yet been so far way, two car doors were all that seperated us, two thin peices of metal was all that phyically seperated us, and yet mentally 1yr 4months 9days stand between us, one heart open, lonely, and broken, the other cold, kept, and distant

1yr 4months and 10days ago i would have killed to have a cold clear night in college station
today i am only reminded of that which i have lost, and how lonely i am...

Current Mood: broken hearted
12:09 am
"Wish I Still Had You"
Walking out on me must be the way you show me how it feels to be her
I realize the fault is mine, I'm getting everything that I deserve

It's over and older the tears seem much colder
Sunshiney days seem to be so blue
It's over and older the tears seem much colder
Each passing day I wish I still had you

My troubles would be all over now if I could only get you off my mind
And I would give a fortune now if I could only hold you one more time

It's over and older the tears seem much colder
Sunshiney days seem to be so blue
It's over and older the tears seem much colder
Each passing day I wish I still had you

"Wish I Still Had You" - Alison Krauss

Current Mood: lonely
Monday, October 8th, 2007
6:16 pm
whats one more time...
(The following is composed of about 8 songs lyrics, and then pieced into one poem thingy, pretty much sums up how i feel...)

I have cried your name so many times
I have cried these tears for you so many times
What's one more time
Do I ever cross your mind

When I think of you and the love we once knew
How I wish we could go back in time
Do you ever think back on old memories like that
Do I ever cross your mind

Do you ever wake up lonely in the middle of the night because you miss me
Do your memories ever take you back into another place in time
Do you ever miss the feelings and the love we shared when you were with me
Do I ever cross your mind

What’s one more time...

And whenever you go, it's like holding my breath underwater
Unafraid of my days without you
Come back and find me, cause I feel alone
Do I ever cross your mind

I pray till a fool but then surrender to the pain
It doesn’t have to be this way
Do I ever cross your mind

I realize the fault is mine, I'm getting everything that I deserve
Sunshiney days seem so blue
Each passing day I wish I still had you
Do I ever cross your mind

My troubles would be all over now if I could only get you off my mind
And I would give a fortune now if I could only hold you one more time
Do I ever cross your mind

Do I ever cross your mind
What’s one more time?

Current Mood: missing...
Sunday, October 7th, 2007
7:18 pm
"Kyle Field, a stadium of 82,000 people, and the loneliest place to be"
Baby, were you just about to kiss me
Or were you just about to leave?
Come and sit down here beside me
Maybe take a moment just to breathe

Well I could say I’m sorry
And I could tell you I was wrong
I just can’t say forever
But here after from now on

I love you in the winter when the roots grow deep
Love you in the spring when the leaves turn green
I love you in the summer when the trees grow tall
I love you in the fall of the year
When the leaves turn brown
When they cover the ground
Down where the roots grow deep
My love will keep

Why worry ’bout our future
If we’re not worried ’bout our past
So don’t you worry ’bout that question
You been just about to ask

Current Mood: nostalgic
Friday, October 27th, 2006
9:32 am
nearly forgot
EVERYONE GO VOTE!!!! early voting till Nov 3, then election day is Nov 7, GO VOTE!!!
Monday, October 16th, 2006
7:01 pm
Why?

Current Mood: crushed
Thursday, September 7th, 2006
4:57 pm
baby!
we got baby!! about 30min ago, nice and healthy, he gave me the stats, but i have since forgotten them as i ran back to a comp, but yes, there is a baby, Anthony and Connie had there baby, so that is good!
Saturday, September 25th, 2004
10:47 pm
Speaker of the House
today i got to meet, shake hands, talk, joke, amd sell a glock to Speaker of the House Tom Delay (R-Tx), SOOOO COOL!!!!!!! go me, and i also sold one to his daughter, that is so cool, i got to meet and talk to a guy that will be in history books, and whatnot, sorry if you dont find it interesting, but as a history major, that is the kinda stuff dreams are made of, hehehe, later
Saturday, December 14th, 2002
10:39 pm
my first college grades
WEEE i got my first college grades, a 3.18 GO ME, so there fo all you ppl that study or anything like that, hehehe i did not even do my BCIS final project and i got a B, so go me, love you all, later
Thursday, December 12th, 2002
12:17 pm
HOLY SHIT!!!
if you have not seen The Botherhood of the Wolf, you have to go see it, not go, but go rent, holy cow, i just got done watching it, it is kinda lon, like 144min, but holy cow, you will like it, kinda gory, but WOW!!!, later
Monday, December 9th, 2002
11:20 pm
hehehe a stephen first
hehehe today i filled out my first job application, i was so proud of my self, i think it will be a fun job, and i found a new source of DSL, so know i can play CS again, mmmmm, and good thing too, the LAN party is less then a month away, it is going to be so much fun, it is Jan, 3-5 in Austin, in a really nice hotel, and it will be 72 hrs of CS, and i will finally be able to meet all the ppl that i play with on line, so YEA, man x-mas is closing fast, i need to get gifts for freinds and family, oh, and heather you look very nice in those pix!, well talk to you guys later, love you all, take care and be safe, later
Friday, October 25th, 2002
12:29 am
OH MY GOSH
oh my gosh, you gotta see this, it is so much fun, and you can just waste time, it is great, fun, and so cute, hehehe, www.orisinal.com it is just great, hehehe have fun, love ya, later
Thursday, October 24th, 2002
11:26 pm
dressed to kill
I know it's hard for you
To understand what I'm going through
But now I sit here to remind myself
You're always dressed to kill
And you feel like you owe it to the world
But you owe it to yourself
And you're, you're not here
And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine...
And I
I can't dream anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep
Cheer up my friends all say
You're better alone anyways
But you're always on tour
And you're never home
I'm always dressed to kill
And I feel like I owe it to the world
But I owe it to myself
And you're, you're not here
And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine...
And I
I can't dream anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep
Cheer up my friends all say...
And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine
You're better alone anyways
And you're not here, not here
I can't dream anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep
Cheer up my friends all say...

need i say more, i mean i you cant relate in some way to that song i am sorry, but it sucks when it happens, and what is weird, i NEVER to listen to NFG, so dont ask me what i am doing listening to it? have a good night, take care and be safe, hey kristina email me some time, what up?, love you all, later
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
11:02 pm
NICE GUYS FINISH LAST!!!!!!
man oh man is that quoute is so true, ok so a week ago, a guy named Jason Wilson while in front of the school backed into me, and his truck hitch went thru my bumper, the people seemed really nice, and i met the mom, she works in the office, she is the big red head in the AP office, and she seemed really nice, so they give me there number and names and all and tell me to fix it and then tell them about it, and they will pay for it, so i go and get some estimations for the work, the cheapest i could find was $450, and that took some talking, so i get an appointment to get it done and then i go and try to tell them about the cost and what not, but they left by the time i got there, so i called, and i got the dad, the dad says he knows nothing, and needs to talk to his wife and son about it, and then he called back and said it was not his son, his son never hit me and i am a "lying worthless punk, who is trying to scam him and rip him off, and i am nothing but a punk", WHAT THE FUCK, i was so polite and nice and tried to get this thing solved and he just wanted to be an ass and not get anywhere, and he first said he wanted to meet and see the "damage", but then when i said ok, and said i walmart at 5, he suddenly decides not to, and that there is no need to, cause i am "lying and i am calling his wife and son a lier, and i am just a worthless lying punk", WHAT THE FUCK, i am so MAD, and SO STRESSED NOW, errrr it gets me mad, i was trying to be nice and not call the cops, and trying to keep it as cheap as possible, i mean i could have called the cops, and gone and got the most expensive job, and made his insurance go up, but no i was a nice guy, and i got SCREWED, so FUCK YOU BUDDY, i will not take this sitting down, i am mad, and i want a new bumper!!!, i will try the politcal approach, and talk it over with the wife alone, back if it dont work, well then, damn, hehehe, later, ERRRR I AM MAD!!!!!! later
Monday, October 14th, 2002
12:09 am
sigh
well today was another waste of a day, and then my car would not start, i think it is the ignition, so ya, and then i went online, and talked to EVERYONE, and then i got lisa on LJ, so everyone add Lisa, its lisapokie, so ya, everyone say hi to her, she is great, well thats it, talk to ya'll later, later
Wednesday, October 9th, 2002
11:47 pm
hey guys...
hey guys, thank you very much for you help, and your insight, i am sure i will talk to each of you indepently, and get the personalized critics, but i would like to thank all of you, and all exactly what i wanted to hear, and hoped you would say, love you all lots, later
Saturday, June 29th, 2002
1:49 am
"THE COFFEE SHOP IS NOW CLOSED!"
well today was the last day of business for THE coffee shop, five yrs, five long yrs, i have been going there since their first month, and have been there every weekend since, if not more often, it is like a pirce of the town, and a piece of what made me, just died, :( but hey, what are you going to do, it was neat, it started as a thing my parents did with their friends, every saturday night my parents and the dodsons went out for coffee, then meg and her boy freind, anthony, started to go, then austin, then we started to go our slefs, then we went all the time, so much we got stuff free or cheap, then becuase of us, people started to come a little more at a time, and then it got to the point people asked what you were doing, and they said, "going to the coffe shop", and that was all they had to say, it was great, so many good times,neat people, neat actities, and aways something to do, but then the coffee shop changed its hours, to many of the kids were not buying stuff, and were sacring away paying costomers, so with the hours changed, the crowds left, so it got quite, but everyone there started to bond, and become freinds, you could come in, get "connie's special of the day", sit down, and talk with your coffee shop freinds, it was nice while it lasted, i met somereally neat people, and some people that were not so nice, and we had an annual fish fry, that was fun, fish, food, and beer for all, and all ages, hehe, so this yr, it was held a week ealry, (them closing today and all) and it was kinda sad,seening poeple that i will most likely not see again, or not for a while and let, but hey, such is life, well i have to be up by 6:30 tomarrow, for the gun show, so i will let you go, talk to you later
Saturday, June 1st, 2002
10:43 pm
i am sorry...
i am sorry if you have commented on my journals, and i have not responded, i am used to the old days when it told you that i was commented on, but now i guess it does not, so that would be why i am not responding, i am very sorry, hehehe I AM IN THE MONEY, this evenings works now puts me at over $3000 cash, and $1200 un-cashed checks, hehehe, YEAH!!!, now if only a had a car, and becca has a job now, babysitting 3 kids for 7hrs, and getting paid $20, kinda of a rip for all the work, she shoudl get at least $30, but she will not hagel, oh well, but i like, i think i might be falling for her, and yes kim i know what you are going to say, but i really like her, i actually need to talk to you aabout her, and see what you ahve to say, she passes the inspections of most of my friends with flying colors, but i think several people dislike her, and i need to talk to the, and see their point of view, sigh i miss talking to heather and i miss tlaking with kristina, and doing things with her, and well sigh, anyway, ya, not much here, well i will let you go, talk to ya'll later
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